Resignation

You tend to hate something before you know it.
That what I felt with LINUS, as a teacher I sense the whole program give me more work and distracted me from being independent in my classroom.
However, soon come knocking at my door, the job that I’m going to grown to like… I still remember the day I decided to accept this role. Its not because the empowerment or just want to escape from where I am, I accept it just to prove to myself that this is not a joke and I want to help those who struggle in finding themselves.
Being a teacher, you can’t keep the knowledge to yourself and you can’t walk away from opportunity.
And after 3 years of doing this, finally its come to an end. My role, my part and the team I have will soon disappear. I’m going to miss all those teachers who struggle and love their job. Its different when you decide on your own to leave, this time you were ask to leave. And knowing that everything will be gone, its hurt.
It a new journey, definitely!
Tears are coming down and memories puzzling in my mind, the best and the worse moment all simultaneously pop up making everything seem too short and full with meaning.
3 years, I’m in Balat and 3 years, I’m in PPD… soon I will be somewhere else doing something else. Meeting new people, making new friends and starting new chapter of my life.
Its not easy to be a teacher.
Its the journey of mind, heart and soul.
If you are a teacher and you don’t carried those three things within you, its seem you lose yourself to the role and responsibility, its not just a job.
Don’t work as a teacher if you not prepared to be toast around like a joke without any justification or valued. You need a strong heart, a good mind and a healthy soul.
Love what you do and do good to others, protect yourself from any negativity.
If you do your best, whatever happen will be for the best!   

Comments

Post a Comment

please think wisely!

Popular posts from this blog

keluarga!

Keluarga! Ditelan mati emak; diluah mati ayah—eh betul ke begitu? Sebenarnya saya pun kurang pasti hakikat bila kita sudah berkeluarga cuma harapan saya pada yang telah berkeluarga itu berpeganglah kepada pencarian kasih sayang dalam kehidupan. Tak kiralah kasih sayang kepada apa bentuk sekali pun tetapi pastikan ianya suatu yang padu dan membentuk satu sifat yang harmoni untuk diterima masyarakat. Jangan jadi keluarga yang diluar norma penerimaan masyarakat. Seumpama keluarga yang syok sendiri- bayangkan hakikatnya semua benda dimiliki keluarga tersebut dan kemegahannya tiada tandingan tapi yang sedihnya adalah apabila semua itu cuma bayangan yang tidak mampu memberikan kepuasan kepada setiap ahli keluarga tersebut. Mereka seakan-akan berada dalam dunia dimana tiada siapa yang selawaknya berada setaraf dengan diri mereka sendiri. Di dirikan   tiang dan benteng penghalang dari masyarakat untuk menjadi satu bersama mereka kerana masyarakat itulah yang sepatutnya tunduk kepada k
Read more

ImAzih nisutAM

Around 4years ago I met a guy. It wasn’t suppose to meant anything. I was down and heartbroken and he was available. I spend a night at his place and that was a mistake. A mistake that eat me up ever since. I was in love. I’m still in love. I dunno. It was stupid. It’s stupid! The guy is so perfect. He is perfection. And the worse part is that I don’t even like him cause he is cute and good looking. I wish it could be just the appearance so that I could be shallow and blaming myself for being stupid in love with look. But NO! I wrote a list of a perfect person that I wanted to be my partner when I was 15. It was a list that have almost 30 stuff in it and he fit everything. I don’t know what God trying to do. But OH GOD! I can’t stop even a moment not thinking about him. You make the perfect person and show me the perfect person and the perfect person is out there - I can’t have him. i know I don’t deserve him. I did even told him about this obsession. And it make w
Read more

Pengalaman "BLUE MOON" ku

Ketika semua melihat ke langit, aku melangkah pulang. Seharian melayan pelanggan, penatnya kerjaya sebagai seorang jurujual ; tidaklah terperi. Pagi tadi sahaja aku terpaksa menangkap seorang bangla yang cuba mencuri sepasang bra. Itulah bangla, bra pun nak dicuri. Malam ini sungguh indah, mendamaikan dan tenang. “Eh, apa tu dalam semak di belukar sana!” Aku mengerak langkah untuk melihatnya dan terkejutnya aku, seorang bangla sedang memerah susu dalam belukar bersama pasangannya. Acara lucah itu berterusan dan mereka tidak sedar disebalik belukar, aku sedang terpacak; teruja. Indahnya dingin malam. 10 minit berlalu dan aku pun sudah hilang klimaknya. Berlalu aku beredar tatkala mereka masih berterusan mengisi suasana dingin malam. Menyesal diriku, kerna kini hadasku harus dicuci. Aduh malasnya aku untuk mandi pada waktu sebegini. Beberapa langkah aku bergerak dan aku terdengar jeritan seorang jantan datang dari belakang. Menoleh aku ke belakang dan seorang lel
Read more