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I ’m at the moment in life where I feel annoyed watching other people happiness. Its kinda sickening for myself to felt this way but at the same time, I know that I should allowed myself to feel this way caused pretending that I’m ok is not ok! Its really tough to be good, having a good heart; I applaud person who could go above and beyond when dealing with other people. For me, I could be good with you to the extend that if you don’t understand me, I don’t really care. As friendship goes, I will help my friends and those who is close with me, but if its starting to make me worried and annoyed so you kinda know I will distance myself from you. It’s not always all jolly in life. We all share our own up and down. No doubt the difficult time make us think about person who could help us. And we should cherish that person willingness to give us a hand. In reality, those hand are the one that hurt the most. I like to help people, and being “nice” is the most frequent excuses fro

Today I wrote this for my little Ning Baizura. I don’t really like her when she first appear in front of my door. At that time I have my own Aida Jebat, and Aida will scream everytime she detect other are around . Not only screaming, she will also chase all the other bitches out from my house. To Aida, I’m hers. Unfortunately Aida gone missing. She never come back. I think she is dead. She can’t survived on her own and it might be my fault. I make her feel safe and when I’m not around there is no protection for her. I’m a bit upset but Ning is still here. She always come around and she learn to give in to Aida whenever Aida throw a tantrum. Ning is a survival, but Ning is not pretty. She is silent in her action and independent on her own. I start to like her when I notice she know how to play around my mood and she could read my reaction toward her. She will follow me around when she know I’m lonely and she will not touch me or force me to play with her when I’m not in the mood. I